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31 May 2012 @ 12:32 am
Free agent. Sorta.  
So, my 3 years under CAMEO are up and I'm due to get my discharge papers any day now. Then my doctor once more becomes my primary point of contact in regards to my mental health. There's nothing stopping me from getting sent back in the future though should I require it, which is good. I am slightly worried that no longer being under specialist care will mean ATOS and the DWP suddenly think I'm miraculously cured...but then they ignore doctors and specialists in favour of their own box tickers anyway so I may be alright if I scare them enough on assessment day :p.

First thing on my agenda once I receive my outgoing care plan is to arrange a med check with my doctor. I discussed a possible adjustment with my CPN and consultant and they both agreed it was probably necessary. They can no longer order it themselves though for fear of stepping on toes and stuff.

So there's that. I'm having repeated olfactory hallucinations tonight which is irritating the fuck out of me, and my tolerance for bullshit and general stupidity is at an all-time low and really making me want to hit someone in the face repeatedly with a ball-peen hammer. Why not a claw hammer you ask? Coz the name is funnier. It sounds like an instrument for smashing male genitalia doesn't it? See, even though you're feeling downright murderous and want to climb to the top of a tall building, scream 'I am surrounded by idiots' and then jump off and land on a few of them (with said hammer in hand), it is important to retain your sense of humour :p.

My sleep diary is reading like an American football match. Stop. Start. Stop. Start. Stop. Start.

And it's getting warm. Annoyingly, uncomfortably so.

But other than that, I'm just coasting along and doing alright.
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Charity Farrell: united we standrembrandt13 on June 4th, 2012 09:02 pm (UTC)
Now that I've Googled what 'ATOS,' 'CAMEO' & 'the DWP' are... ;) Hey, anything that helps me to further "speak the London"--as my niece put it--is a-okay by me. :D

I can't even imagine how aggravating olfactory hallucinations must be. I'm guessing that stuffing Kleenex up your nose wouldn't help at all, either? :( Don't they have meds for that, or would they conflict with what you're already taking?

You're totally right, "ball peen" is WAY more funny, & I'm super glad to see that you're able to still be as hilarious as always despite this latest round of crap you're being forced to contend with.

Now you know why I like British football so much better than American football. The only thing worse is baseball--jeezy creezy, a single inning can take hours sometimes & might consist of every guy walking! If I want to see horrendously-overpaid pro athletes walk around, I'll watch golf instead!

BTW, I quit smoking a month ago; what I'm finding truly bizarre is that the longer I go without smoking, the more I want to! It's just really odd for an occasional smoker--I had maybe 2-3 Djarums per week at best. At some point I'll probably break down & buy another pack, but for now I'm seeing how long I can go without them. How long have you been smoke-free now?
Teh Phlege: Brooding!Sevenphlegethon_vii on June 5th, 2012 06:54 am (UTC)
Fagless for 19 months now. What you are experiencing is the ol' 'don't touch the red button' effect. Is there anything addictive in clove ciggies or is it a force of habit kinda thing?

Plugging your face holes has little effect on olfactory hallucinations in my experience. You can still smell it in your braaaaiiiiin. Plus you look kinda ridiculous and someone will inevitably knock on your door when you look ridiculous :p